Define Hatred, Why I Really Really Dislike Family Gatherings and My Goal In Life.

Christians aren't supposed to hate another person, christians are taught to love everyone, including their own enemies. i am a christian, i could say that i dont hate anyone, but i am also not sure that i love anyone.

Define hatred. when you dislike someone occasionally, does that count as hate? or when you hate every thing that person does and every detail about that person? i don't really hate anyone in my life. i just dont like them. like family gatherings, i refuse to go often, not because i hate them. it's because I DONT LIKE THEM. and my parents start saying im anti social(that's true), and they say i hate my relatives and that's really sinful.

According to Wikipedia: Hatred is an emotion of intense revulsion, distaste, enmity, or antipathy for a person, thing, or phenomenon, generally attributed to a desire to avoid, restrict, remove, or destroy the hated object.

see, i dont hate anyone. as i've never thought of destroying someone. because it's impossible.

oh fuck, someone save me.

i dont hate my relatives. in fact, i find myself incapable of hating anyone. but that doesnt mean i am incapable of being mean to anyone. for example, i kind of start disliking some classmates of mine, and some stuff that they do really irritate me, but im not really an angel too. but the main reason i cant bring myself to hate them is, whenever i feel like hating them, my fucking brain just automatically flashes memories of them helping me before, giving me help and comfort in difficult times. so then my brain will make a conclusion that they're good people despite any annoying and irritating stuff that they do.

Why I Hate Family Gatherings.
1. i am anti social
2. my relatives arent the type of people you wanna have dinner with, greedy old people
3. i dislike kids, some of my cousins are still crying lil' annoying kids
4. i dont give a fuck about my relatives
5. i dislike their bragging
6. i just dont like them
7. i'd rather spend my precious time doing something else like sleeping
8. i have 0% patience
9. my relatives suck ass, some of them are ill mannered and nasty
10. family gatherings are totally unnecessary occasions, unless there's a funeral, birthday, new year, or christmas

so there, those are all the reasons i dislike family gatherings, yet i am still forced to go to every single meaningless gathering there is. god help me, cure me of my anti social behaviour and negative thinking or, make my relatives generous and cure them of their "i deserve a free dinner" way of thinking.

My Goals In Life.
this is classic, i wanna be a useful person. that's what everyone normal wants to be. talking about career, i'm still not so sure. i kind of like those medicine stuff, but i also like photography. but of course i like cutting up people and it pays more.

my parents, my responsibility for life. my goal is to not grow to despise them and take care of them when i'm older, when they're very old. i kinda can see myself turning my back on them as i can hardly stand them. im sucha a bad person.

like any form 3 kids, my goal is to get 8As in PMR. and straight A1s in SPM and eventually go to a well known and the best college overseas with beautiful sceneries.

MAKE TONS AND TONS OF MONEY.

and im also a tv addict. Heroes is gonna start on channel 70 already. better get going.